Good Days/Bad Days

Ugh, I'm so devoid of energy right now. So foggy and fuzzy. I'm paying dearly for the rush of vitality I felt earlier today, but at least I had the rush at all. In that sense, today was a good day.

On good days, I can get things done. Things beyond the minimal requirements of getting out of bed, dressing, going to class, coming back, and maybe doing some homework. On good days, I can run an errand or two (maybe). I can read ahead for class. I can participate in a class discussion. I can have a conversation on the phone. I can do all these things in one day and not have to force it too much. I can even feel alert enough to enjoy it, and I might even be able to spend time with a friend.

Yesterday was a decidedly bad day. Bad days may or may not consist of panic attacks. On bad days, I feel so weak I can barely move or think. On bad days, I feel very out of focus, not entirely present, not for a couple hours, but for the entire day.

Most days are in-between. There are some components of the good and plenty of the bad, but I get by, and I'm grateful for that.